Struggling to write

Wondering if I've outgrown this blog and I hope it's because the need to prove myself is fading

For the past five years, I’ve needed this blog to regulate and understand myself.

I started it because I wanted to be a better communicator, but slowly realised my struggle with communication was because my mind was a jumbled mess.

And writing has helped untangle that and understand what I think.

Writing’s also become a way to express myself, something I lost after footy and hadn’t realised was an outlet for that too.

It’s also shown me how much I need long, uninterrupted stretches to focus. Not just to get things done, but to feel good. And there’s plenty of research on the benefits of being “in flow” that I’ve felt (My mind is much clearer and my mood is heaps better on the days I get there).

So looking back, I really started this blog to feel better.

And if I’m being honest, to show people how smart and insightful I am.

But this week, I feel like I’m just sitting here writing this out of habit, as I don’t feel that urge, and struggling to find something to write about.

Maybe that’s just because it’s been a big few weeks and I need a break.

Or maybe it’s something deeper and perhaps I don’t need to write this blog every week anymore to prove myself.

Either way, I couldn’t be happier with how this year’s unfolding, and I’m taking a break from writing here until the energy returns (could be next week, lol).

This blog has been a great practice ground, as lots of the ideas I’ve shared here ended up on LinkedIn and helped me land speaking gigs.

But the talks are going great, and I’m feeling less need to post.

The urge to write hasn’t gone away, as I’m journalling more than ever. But the urge to share has eased.

Anyways, not sure if this post makes sense as t’s a bit of a brain dump. But that’s about all I feel like giving this blog right now.

But keen to hear if you’ve ever outgrown something that once helped you through a tough time.