and up the mighty Brumbies!
Great work mate. You probably don't realise how significant and important it is to hear a hard as nails front rower with a big alpha personality speak candidly about their own mental health challenges. From someone who has gone through similar struggles, it's so heartening to read your stuff and realise how these conditions are indiscriminate in the characters that they impact. Please bring back the regular posts, even (especially) on days when it's the last thing you want to do.
Love what you’re doing here mate
Great post and it made me reflect to the time where I called it quits on the music game. Obviously not an athletic pursuit but for the best part of 12 years, my identity had been wrapped up in being Milkbar Nick. There was always the expectation (self imposed) that music would be my career but I soon realised that the passion was no longer there and I started valuing my time more with friends and family rather than being up all night and sleeping all day.
For such a long time I felt as though I didn't have a purpose and never realised that it could be because I'd just lost a big part of who I was. Looking back on it, I probably was depressed and lost but didn't really have an outlet or anyone to talk to about it. It probably took about 5 years to really 'retire' Milkbar Nick and just be Nick. Would have been good to have gotten some help back then.
I've since had a psych to unpack the loss of my parents and the grief associated with it, as well as being a good father and partner. It's bloody hard but I feel I'm a stronger more resilient person because of it.
Anyway, really appreciate you sharing all this stuff. Good work :)
Good stuff Ben. "Why do we fall? So we can learn to pick ourselves up." Words to live by.